bloggin my heart

There is a fellow blogger that I started reading back over a year ago who always posts her feelings so elegantly...whether they are elegant feelings or not :) Steph always reminds me of the joy of parenthood...real parenthood! She also eloquently talks about marriage & being a mother :) she is somethin special and so often makes me smile or laugh right out loud & I do not even "know" her. I do believe her to be a stellar individual however & since she challenged her readers to BLOG YOUR HEART I decided to play along

This is super long & I do not think too many will care or get to #22 but here it goes:

1. I am happy.

I have an awesome life.

Hubby that makes me smile & answers "do I look fat?" with the right answer every time

Two kids that I adore & are everything I always wanted!!!

2. I have a job I love

one I feel good at

smart at

it is super hard & rewarding

and for the most part I feel valued there

3. I hate that I am so fat for me

I have hit the change of life

and with that I am unable to loose weight

sadly I am just finding it :(

that makes me feel ugly

and sadly perpetuates my self hate

4. As I get older I find myself thinking about things I can not change

thinking about worldly things I can not change...but want to

5. I never, EVER watch the news

it is depressing

it is always the same

horrific

6. We, Doug & I over the past year made some great friends

who are actually good to us

I do miss some friends we haven't spoke to in a while

and do hope they see this & know they are thought of often!!!!!!!

(hey Karebear seen your bro the other day, called me Nessa & took me right back to you, me, Timmie & the 80's)

(hi Jen...seen your mixbook of Scott & the kids...whatta gorgeous family!)

(Janice! I am sure the kids are so big...would love to see ya)

(Brianna, wish I could get together with you & the girls)

(Trudy...my quilt still looks awesome at the lake!)

so many great people impact our lives but life gets in the way

I am told this is what facebook is for

but sadly I never have time for that!

7. I love Vampire Diaries...don't laugh!!!

8. I regret not spending enough time with my sisters, nieces & nephews.

I loved watching my nephew playing football the other day,

together as a family, we are quite a force to be reckoned with!

I need to make more time for that kinda thing!

9. I am a crazy hockey mom

I am a crazy everything mom

I am crazy :) when it comes to my boys

10. I love to play games & sports

I feel like an adult

but play like a kid

Doug hates all cards & board games

11. I believe in a higher power

but not organized religion

12. my favorite number is 22

13. a lot of uncanny things happen around me & to me

it makes me feel super weird!

14. People always tell me how confident I am

"what a strong woman"

I laugh right out loud at that!!!

anyone who really knows me laughs too

15. I love our cottage

16. I love my car

I feel spoiled in it everyday

17. I think I am a good crafter

but I am very self punitive

nothing is ever perfect

it helps to make things with someone I care about in mind

to me it always makes the thing I am making better

18. I fondly remember those who've gone

but I hate to think about the past

so much darkness

it makes me cry

19. sometimes I yell at my boys

loudly

and regret it so much after

20. our basement is where we spend almost all of our time

21. my mother has been my rock

she is all the good that I remember about my childhood & adolescence

she is the reason I am alive

I could never, ever repay her for all she is

22. my lucky number will be the final glimpse into my heart

I love you hon

you are my soulmate

& best friend

thanks for comin by

if you blog your heart

please let me know :)

xo V'ness